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Category: Miscarriage
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For days now, I've been restless. Feeling unsettled. Worried almost. I have barely been able to sit down and sew or knit. My studio is once again a mess as I've flitted from one project to the next and not finishing hardly any of them. For weeks and months now, I've been reading about…
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Today was just a day. Right? At least it was unless I was still. Then I'd think. I'd think of two years ago. I'd think of the sorrow I felt two years ago. I'd think of waiting in the examining room two years ago. I'd think of the nurses and doctors who were so cold…
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I first saw an article referring to Barbara Bush's miscarriage this morning. The headline made it seem so macabre, "Fetus in Bottle". That part is so minor in the story. Here's one quote: The attachment to the fetus lasts long after the pregnancy is over, for months and sometimes years Throughout this entire article the author…
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A dear friend brought chocolate: Retail therapy:
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One year ago today, I found out my baby had died in utero. My heart was broken (and it still is). I passed the baby in the next couple of days and had him buried in the rosary garden at church. I'm still working through it. I'm working through the overwhelming emotions that have…
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MY MOMMy Mom is a survivor, or so I’ve heard it said. But I hear her crying at night when all others are in bed. I watch her lay awake at night and go to hold her hand.She doesn’t know I’m with her to help her understand.But like the sands on the beach that never…
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I can go along daily without feeling too sad about losing Mark but then, BAM! I get reminded. I just noticed a pregnancy ticker in someone's signature on my favorite forum. It brought home that this week I would've been 36 weeks along. I'm feeling blue and weepy.
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I finally dismantled the crib. I need chocolate. And a tissue.
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I was looking through my email inbox for an email from about 2 years ago. I'm awful about cleaning it out. I couldn't find it, but found a whole bunch of the notifications I receive whenever someone comments on my blog. That led to me think about the evolution of my blog. The commenters were…
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One of the good things that has come out of my miscarriage has to do with Brother. I can't explain it so I'll just give a couple of examples. A few days after we buried Mark, Brother expressed concern when the weather turned cold. He worried that Mark would be cold out there in the…
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