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Mark Edward

January 23, 2009

Today we buried Mark Edward. Father Richard was so wonderful. We placed the box with Mark Edward in front of the altar during mass.

The first time Father mentioned Mark Edward, I cried. The tears kept coming throughout the mass. Brother cried as I cried. Father Richard said, during the homily, that Mark had lived his purpose on earth even though we may never know what that purpose is. I believe that and take comfort in it. After the final blessing at mass, we followed Father Richard, Father Peter and the Deacon out of church to the rosary garden where other babies are buried. Brother carried Mark the entire way. He placed him in the ground. Father sprinkled some holy water. He said some beautiful prayers, a Hail Mary, and Angel of God. I cried. A lot.

I think of him out there and I just can't stand it. I'm restless. I don't know what to do next.

My dearest friends were there and gave me all I needed, hugs and love.

One of my very dear friends who is also an expert knitter gave me the box and prepared the interior. She also gave me what she had knit of the beautiful baby shawl she had planned on giving me for Mark. Isn't it beautiful?

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8 responses to “Mark Edward”

Jennifer

January 23, 2009

God love you, KC. You are such an excellent mother; Mark Edward is so blessed that God chose you to be his mom.
Yes, it’s true. We do labor to deliver these babies, months before we’d hoped, and it does feel exactly the same as a full-term birth. It’s profoundly difficult and medicine without a soul is very isolating.
I thank God for the gift of Father Richard. My extended family wonders why Texas is home for us. It only takes one trial there to understand why.
Miss you so much, praying for you, aching with you, and quietly rejoicing in the Savior, way deep down.
(((hugs)))

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Sue

January 24, 2009

KC, I know how hard that sense of restlessness is. Visit him as often as you wish and, when the time comes, for you to visit less, do not feel guilt. It is the way it is meant to be.
Father spoke so beautifully at Mass and the burial was so touching.
I wish I could take all of your pain away right now, but that would deny you your motherhood. Motherhood loves fiercely and such a loss cuts cuts deeply . You will never be the same, but you will heal. Our Blessed Mother knows your pain and I entrust you to her.
Mark Edward, pray for us!

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Jennifer in TX

January 24, 2009

Dear KC,
Praying for you and especially asking little Mark Edward to intercede for his dear family here on earth…There is nothing harder in this life than saying goodbye to our babies. 😦 Much love to you!
Jennifer in TX

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Emily

January 24, 2009

God has made you very strong. He has made you a wonderful mother to so many blessings here and in God’s heavenly kingdom. One day you will all rejoice together in His presence.
Think of your Mark and Rose often in Mass especially at the elevation and smile knowing they are so close to Jesus at that moment, for Mass is Heaven on earth.
Time will heal the emptiness and your sorrow will turn into dancing. Your precious babies are smiling right now at the beauty of their family here doing God’s work. Their work was complete.
God Love you and Ben, KC.

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jess

January 26, 2009

Praying for you dear KC. The Mass and burial were beautiful and I know little Mark and Rose are praying for their sweet family.
God bless you and your family.

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Marilyn

January 26, 2009

Dear KC – I have been praying for you and thinking of you constantly. Wish I lived closer to help.
Hugs

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Lisa R

February 2, 2009

KC continuing to pray for you. Mark Edward is such a strong name. his special box and shawl are beautiful.
love, lisa

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MelanieB

February 2, 2009

Saying a prayer for you during your time of loss. I had a miscarriage two years ago and know the pain you are feeling. God bless you.

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