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I've not been blogging much lately.  Actually, I feel like I've not been very productive at all lately.  I should clarify that.  I was not very productive or not as productive as I would have liked during the pregnancy and well, the last few weeks have been difficult.  I'm trying to get back on my feet.  Losing the baby really did me in and I'm trying to dig myself out.  I'm not one to express my sorrow but it's been coming out in ways I wish it wouldn't.  Just ask my husband.  So, I'm on another type of journey.  One where I'll find peace.  One where I learn to accept and trust in God's will whatever it may be.  The control freak in me makes that very hard and it goes against my very nature.  It's a constant struggle–minute by minute.  Any prayers would be appreciated.

I have plans.  My mother-in-law is coming in a couple of hours.  We always enjoy our visits.  The children love her and clamor for her attention.  She also spoils them rotten as only grandmothers are allowed.  For Lent, I'm going to purge.  I'm going to get rid of all the baby stuff I've been saving.  I'm going to get rid of all the clothes I've been saving up to Pumpkin's size.  I'm going to dismantle the crib and make room in my bedroom.  It's not that I need the space, but I need to move the empty daily reminder.  I'm going to clean and organize my life in a way that's not been done in a long time. 

Then I'm going to have a big garage sale.  I'll give my local friends first dibs on everything. 

Will it make me sad?  Of course, it makes me teary eyed just typing it up.  I've not necessarily given up on having more children, but I need to simplify my life a little more and having less stuff will help.  I don't do drastic as I am such a pack rat and it goes against my very nature to get rid of things.

What else?  Spiritually, I need to pray more and more often.  It's always been quite a struggle for me to pray.  I've always needed to be so self-sufficient that it's been hard to lean on anyone much less God.  It always sounds so simple; why is it so hard?

There are more, but how much more could I bore you about the plan to improve myself?  Happy Thursday, everyone.

Oh, if you could all pray for my husband.  Once again, he's up for a PCS (permanent change of station).  He has been requested by name by an organization here but that does not mean that he will be given that job (even though it would benefit everyone and save the Army paying for a move).  Also, his promotion board meets beginning on the 18th.  It's nervewracking to say the least.