After the initial news of Ryan Barrett's death, there was a scarcity of information available.  So, I googled it.  The first news story I read made me mad.  After mentioning the recovery of Ryan, there was a quote from a spokesperson for the local autism society chapter.  She mentioned how autistic children tend to wander and that we as a community need to keep an eye on them.  I was appalled that the reporter could be so cruel as to imply an admonishment to the parents of Ryan.  Even if that were not his intent, I thought it was in poor taste.  As all kids (autistic and neuro-typical) do tend to wander, I thought this information was superfluous.   

As a parent of a child with autism, I am well aware of the dangers.  I know that they don't understand the implications.  Brother does things without thought to consequences.  He has serious impulse control issues.  That is why I am hypervigilant with him as I am sure the Barretts were with Ryan especially with 14 years experience with him. 

Today, he scared about 10 years off my life.  After mass, we were chatting with friends in near the Mary garden.  Brother was there and then he wasn't.  He had gone into the adoration chapel without letting me know.  When I found him and spoke with him, he couldn't understand why I was upset or scared.  He was thinking that he was in a place where he's allowed; what's all the fuss?  What else could I say?  Needless to say, I broke down.  I don't usually make a habit of it as I am Korean (synonymous with stoic), but with everything else that has happened, I couldn't hold it in.  Ben was shocked.  My friends all understood and stood by me while I got myself together. 

I'm still a bit weepy but will make it through.  Maybe it's this silly cold I seem to have caught.   

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6 responses to “Autism and Wandering”

  1. Jennifer in TX Avatar

    What scary moment, KC…prayers for you.

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  2. MacBeth Avatar

    Thanks for this, K. C. I have a son who is not autistic, but who wanders more than most. I suppose he would say it was deliberate (he’s 17 now, and just likes to leave, alone, for long periods). He has wandered off in national forests, mountainous outskirts, camping tips, etc. He is currently 2100 miles away in CO, and videos his solo excursions just to tweak me. As you rightly point out, calling this trait “typical” for autism ignores the fact that many boys wander; we have to be aware of these habits for all children as individuals, not a labeled groups. As for Ryan, he was not a wanderer in my experience…he was blessed and fortunate to have parents that knew where he was, what he needed, and how to do what was best for him.

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  3. meredith Avatar

    How scary KC, praying for a calm day with lots of snuggles.

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  4. Paula in MN Avatar

    KC, my kids are not autistic, but have been known to wander too. It is scary, for all of us. Praying for a relaxing evening for you.

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  5. jess Avatar

    As soon as I saw everyone looking for him, I immediately thought of everything that has happened and knew that it would upset you greatly. You are such a wonderful mama to him and your girls and you are such a good advocate. I hope your nerves have calmed a bit. Hugs to you.

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  6. Sue Avatar

    It was a scary moment, and I, too, thought of everything that has happened. After I hobbled back around and found out he was safe and saw that you would, eventually, be okay, I hopped in the truck and prayed a prayer of thanksgiving that he was fine. This is what came to my heart and mind:
    And He said to them, “Why is it that you were looking for Me? Did you not know that I had to be in My Father’s house?” Luke 2:49

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